Don’t Say Good night
slowly gaining the world but only loosing my self to this nothingness. knowing that god hears me. knowing that all of my prayers will be answered. or that everything will be okay. but i refuse to say good night. through the darkness that consumes over me. that eats away at the nothing thats left inside of this hollow shell of a person. maybe just maybe, ill be able to come out of this alive, through every fight into the frigged nights and sunless days. consistently for a thousand days and a thousand nights hearing nothing but earth shattering screams. still you find a way to come out alive, the only one left. But you hear a knock on your black door.
the things wfor the ones we love
Only tears can defend me….
Left to die on the inside
im not going to bow down to you. leave me, you’ve done it many times befor. ill make my own way, im here left to die on the insie and out. All ways i had wondered why i loved you, never could i find this stupid little awnser lingering over my head. Its killing me on the inside. i dont care how many times ive kissed you, or said i love you. it means nothing to me.
these…….these… dark shadows, cover my head like a blanket. only can i see what it wants. eighter the good the bad or the unthinkable. pleaseing, praying, practily, paceing my room, looking for the one simple reason why i loved you. i can never find it, i think it might be just because you where hers, and i wanted you more then her.
no. i was never jelouse of her, she was that to me. she ment nothing worthless, rude, hated and no life, but i stuck by her side only me. but she took every thing that i wanted needed and had. she stole my life, and HIM!
this thought flutted my insides and forced my little brown eyes shut. only thinking the worst, kinda like all ways. But i relized i still love you and i will one day i will have you back. my love <3
#to avery hehe i told you i would wright it.
R.I.P. Seth Lasater
ive been dreading this for 365 days. your anniversary of your death. every day was crucial for me, to accepted fact that your not here. 4:38, i cant sleep all i can think about is you. How the bullet struck your head and you fell dead.
every tear on my face feels like a thoushand needles stabbing me in the heart. But thats how it felt for a while. i miss you, every thing about you.
7… 7… the number for heaven. But i wonder if you ever knew that. 7 the number on your foot ball jersey, 7 the number my number the number. 7 that number makes me know that you are in heaven. im not one to have religious beliefs but i love you so much. you are he reason i carisch life. knowing how fast it can be taken away<3
i love you so much<3 never can i say it enough. Kendall, Daphane, mirandia, lindesy, johnny, hayden, avery, kaite, sarah,sara,sarah tori, your mother, father, and chase, and so many others wil never for get you!
Goodnight ill see you when the sun comes up<3 Good bye…9/23/99-7/12/11
i love you and this!! no one can take this away from me!