Poetry

Left to die on the inside

im not going to bow down to you. leave me, you’ve done it many times befor. ill make my own way, im here left to die on the insie and out. All ways i had wondered why i loved you, never could i find this stupid little awnser lingering over my head. Its killing me on the inside. i dont care how many times ive kissed you, or said i love you. it means nothing to me.

these…….these… dark shadows, cover my head like a blanket. only can i see what it wants. eighter the good the bad or the unthinkable. pleaseing, praying, practily, paceing my room, looking for the one simple reason why i loved you. i can never find it, i think it might be just because you where hers, and i wanted you more then her.

no. i was never jelouse of her, she was that to me. she ment nothing worthless, rude, hated and no life, but i stuck by her side only me. but she took every thing that i wanted needed and had. she stole my life, and HIM!

this thought flutted my insides and forced my little brown eyes shut. only thinking the worst, kinda like all ways. But i relized i still love you and i will one day i will have you back. my love <3

-Daphane<3

#to avery hehe i told you i would wright it.

The world flashed right befor my eyes…

I love silence. the darkness makes me think of all my sins I’ve given god to count. my tattered heart has been through alot. you don’t no me and what I’ve been through then again I don’t know you and what you’ve gone through.

Be glade you not me sitting in my shoes. my heart is ripped in 2 4 12 different pieces, you wouldn’t get it even if I you I wanna play this stupid game, and I don’t hate you. look away as I pit the frame, and cut you outta the picture. so listen to me when I speak and I talk. the darkness is my only friend. but thats okay because when I die I will go see my best friend, darkness where all my story’s and lies lie. darkness where I scream and shout I where I’ve died once before.

now look me on the eyes and tell me you still love me. I’ll look you in the eyes and tell you how much I need you. it’s 3:34 and you’ve screwed me over twice before, but I’m still in love with you. WHY CAN I HATE YOU!! I could never tell you, I love you i do. don’t speak another word, I through the key board on the ground and start spinning around, and thinking of happy things.

turning out the lights leaving is in mind, i never said you couldn’t help and now your putting words into my mouth. now it’s 4:20 still trying to think the light goes off, and I got one light one and a grin on my face. thinking back to a kiss the first one at that. the light goes off and I begin to sink back to my best friend … Darkness who’d you think. I scream out three words and begin to cry, they said your name witch I adore I stop for a moment. just paralyzed into ever lasting thought. about he much I love you, beginng to become understroght, I begin to relax its. 6:03 and now I am asleep so bye the next time I see you I’ll let my lips be the gun, my kisses be the bullets, than you can label me a killer, and I’ll shoot you down with every kiss and hug and every tear. I’m lost with out you here my dear I just would like you to know, how much I love you and still care. I’m never sure if you mean what you say, but to these words are powerful, wonderful, inspiration but you will never feel my pain. because in sitting in the damn dark reading to my best friend.

screw light and silence, I would rather listen to the world scream, as it gets into eternal darkness I hate silence it keeps me realize I’m alone I fall once more build up the wall and slam the door and cry to the god that dissent exist. these are my worst of fears. do you hear my screams or how about my cries. you not here so bask in the sun. I will burn I’m hell leave me here and if this poem makes you hate me than screw the world and I will go into my silence I hate darkness it lies to mr until I fall asleep and silence gives me time to think if all my sins given to god to count for what I have done but I have the barrel turned to my head click click. I love you boom! did you hear my scream or how about my cries my world just flashes right before my eyes.

~daphane

1….2…..3….4

I cryed my eyes all through last night. Its 3:06am to be precise. You’ve hit me 4 times, and twice in the face. With every hit came a sting and every sting came a tear.

3:11 i drown in tears and no ears to hear my peircing wimmpers. no one to comfort me. i thought of a way out, held the knife to my face, i through it down with a clank. You told me to drop dead and i think i just might.All i wish is for someone to be here, just to hold me so very tight. so i began to wright end less writing.

3:15 the outer body has began to fled, gasping for that last breath, not knowing what to do. i didnt want to pray, there is no god, because if there was then why would he let his children hurt them selves, kill whats left of him.

my furnal was like no outer, i watched people sit there morn, im slowly drifting into an eternal sleep. i slowly breath. i can feel the gates of hell on my face. and blood pouring form my cheek. witch i guess would be a tear.

1……2…….3…….4 couting slowly

my name is daphane sierra long i died on july 3rd at 3:15 cause of death sucied.

dear who ever cares,

this is not a cry for help this is a plead of me tryin to be peace full. let me rest in pice. So now i say Good night

Just a dream?!?!

your soft lushes lips pressed ever so slightly agenist mine. your hands pulling me closer to you, left handbehind my head holding me there for what seemed like minutes. my eyes shut, witch begin to tear. thinking of my love for you a tear rolls down my cheak. befor i know it my handdss are in your hair i begin to smile, is this normal? Reality comes russing back to me in vicitous waves. im thinking of we. with this prestious memorie i try to set it free, so theres nothing left of we. This was only just a dream

-Daphane